Thanks iLike.com for clarifying that. And thanks Lynyrd Skynyrd for these lyrics:
Oh, take your time. Don’t live too fast.
Troubles will come and they will pass.
Go find a woman–you’ll find love.
And don’t forget, son, there is someone up above.
And be a simple kind of man.
Be something you love and understand.
Baby, be a simple kind of man.
Oh, won’t you do this for me, son, if you can?
Forget your lust for the rich man’s gold.
All that you need is in your soul.
And you can do this, oh baby, if you try.
All that I want for you, my son, is to be satisfied.
This song was on my mind today. Mostly because I submitted a two week’s notice for one of my jobs. It felt impulsive and liberating. But really I’ve been thinking about doing it for awhile. I’m only there one day a week for one thing. It doesn’t pay all that well. And it doesn’t challenge or stimulate me in the slightest. (A cubicle is involved.)
So, out with the old, in with the new. Which, is this economy, doesn’t mean much. But fuck it. All I need is in my soul.
Today I woke up and I baked cupcakes. The motivation came from wanting to give one to someone I love. But before I did that I was reading status updates on Facebook off of my phone, and someone paid tribute to this forever beautiful and gracious lady:
“At the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one more test, not winning one more verdict or not closing one more deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a friend, a child, or a parent.”
What a broad.
So back to the cupcakes. I prepared a box mix of marble fudge. And it instructs you to pour the fudge mix on afterwards, so it ended up creating some cool designs (because I didn’t try too hard to achieve a marble effect). They’re like the Rorschach Ink Blot Test! What do you see:
When I was young I sometimes repaired watches. I tried and failed many times. Sometimes I would lose my patience and hit the watch! During those moments, my anger altered my whole attitude and afterwards I felt very sorry for my actions. If my goal was to repair the watch, then why did I hit it on the table? –The Dalai Lama, The Dalai Lama’s Book of Wisdom
I made a bad pot. For some reason, I always thought that I was special and different. And I guess I just have a really hard time when I want to be good at something and I suck. –Jeff Winger, NBC’s “Community”
The Dalai Lama and the writers from “Community” bring up a theme I’ve been struggling with lately. It’s hard feeling like a bumbling novice. But it’s even harder striving for something that, at worst, is impossible, and, at best, is ridiculously subjective–perfection. I want to learn things, I want to experience life. I don’t want to beat myself up like one of the Dalai’s watches.
As the end of sitcoms go, I think things generally turn out okay, for the best. If you pass me on the street, looking distressed and dishevelled, you’ll know it’s me when I stop in my tracks and proclaim, “Goddammit, I’m doing the best I can!” Or I might just angrily whisper to myself over and over, “At any moment you could die, the least you can do is try.”
Sometimes when people are vaguely complaining about mundane things, such as their DVR failing to record this week’s episode of “Community”, or China continually giving them reasons to wear their “Free Tibet” gear, I’ll halfheartedly reply, “Life is hard.” But fuck, man. It is! It’s also a whole slew of other things, but today there will be no devil’s advocating–life is frustrating and hard.
I accidentally got a psychic reading a while back, and she was right–I do feel like I keep taking three steps forward and two steps back. That psychic also told me that I’d be fine if I kept smiling. Which still strikes me as an obnoxious thing to say. As frustrating and hard as life’s failures feel, they’re often the things that teach us the most and open our eyes to the right steps to be taking. Strife and angst serve a purpose. Blah blah blah if it weren’t for difficult times we’d never grow.
Also, the Dalai Lama repaired watches?! I had no idea.
Not one of your pertinent ancestors was squashed, devoured, drowned, starved, stranded, stuck fast, untimely wounded, or otherwise deflected from its life’s quest of delivering a tiny charge of genetic material to the right partner at the right moment in order to perpetuate the only possible sequence of hereditary combinations that could result–eventually, astoundingly, and all too briefly–in you. —Bill Bryson, A Short History of Nearly Everything
That same, shockingly, goes for all of these people:
After watching the Academy Awards tonight, I’ve got this feeling in my chest. It’s tight and open at the same time. It’s at ease and anxious. It’s the same feeling I have when I stop and think about life–the overwhelming feeling of recognizing its beautiful mysteries, contradictions, and ambiguities.
I’m left with that feeling now because the Oscars are a celebration of creativity. And if I’m truly honest with myself, I feel most alive when I’m creating. No matter if it’s a poem, essay, performance, or conversation with a friend.
The speech that most directly related to all this came from Michael Giacchino who won Best Original Score for his work on “Up”. He said:
I was nine and I asked my dad, ‘Can I have your movie camera? That old wind-up eight milimeter camera that’s in your drawer?’ And he goes, ‘Sure, take it.’ And I took it and I started making movies with it and I started being as creative as I could. And never once in my life did my parents ever say, ‘What you’re doing is a waste of time.’ Never. And I grew up I had teachers, I had colleagues, I had people I worked with all through my life who always told me, ‘What you’re doing is not a waste of time.’ So that was normal to me….
I know there are kids out there who don’t have that support system, so if you’re out there and you’re listening–listen to me: if you want to be creative, get out there and do it. It’s not a waste of time.
In the end, the competition doesn’t matter. The support and the love–they do. And creativity? It’s not a waste–it’s life itself.
Last weekend I was sitting in a hair salon (which is one of the places on Earth I feel most awkward), and I overheard an interaction between an employee and a customer that rubbed me the wrong way. So much so that I told my diary. And now I’m telling you.
The customer, a woman, was telling the employee, also a woman, what she was thinking for her hair. She explained that she’d been blonde for a long time, and had just recently gotten married and had gone back to being brunette because she wanted her natural look in light of the occasion. She said she wouldn’t mind going back to blonde now.
And that was all fine. I thought that was kind of a nice thing to do for your wedding. But then the employee laughed and said, “Oh, your husband’s going to be so happy with you as a blonde.” And all the women around them in the salon laughed as if to agree that ha ha men are such predictable creatures who just want to bang a chick with big tits and platinum hair!
Can we stop with these generalizations that fail to serve anyone? I recently caught an episode of “Sheer Genius” on Bravo. It’s a terrible show about hair stylists competing for money and the chance the style hair in an issue of “Allure Magazine”. Anyway, one of the challenges on this episode involved all the stylists working with a group of blondes who’d done terrible damage to their hair–to the point that some of these women would be bald soon if they kept doing whatever they were doing. So the whole challenge was to tone down the bleachiness to make the women look, well, less damaged.
Only thing was, the show is filmed in LA. And more than likely, these women had been sent to the “Sheer Genius” set by their modeling or acting agencies because it would give them a day of work. Not because they were interested in changing their hair. And that’s exactly how it was–once the women got into the chairs they ALL said, “I’d like to stay blonde.”
I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with being a blonde. I’m not writing all this just because I have brown hair. It’s just annoying that being “a blonde” is such a thing. They have more fun, they have more sex, they have less brain cells.
These damn t-shirt companies are making money by pinning people against each other! I don’t think it’s as silly or harmless as it can easily be brushed aside as being. Like, I get being proud of your heritage, but are these really necessary on multiple days of the year, never mind as regular components of your wardrobe?:
That vampire shirt is pretty funny, though… That one can stay.